Fate has a funny way of working. I overslept massively today and just missed a train so had to wait 20 mins for the next one. As I was standing in the waiting room I saw h's friend on the platform. Luckily I was wearing my 180 new tight black jeans with cute heals (I nearly wore rubbish clothes today but decided to make an effort at the last minute).
So I walked up the platform and he saw me and looked a little panicked (I don't know what he knows about the situation but he clearly knows we are not together anymore) and he said hi and asked how I was. I said hi back, laughed and said I had just missed my train and I was popping to the shop to get some water. That put him at ease so I went and got my water and we stood and chatted on the platform. We traveled all the way in together and I was happy and fun and chatted about how busy I was. We talked a lot about work as he works in a similar area to me and he was really interested in what I was doing. He gave me some work advice and I thanked him and said I'd look up the website.
We chatted about music (as h and him were/ are in a jazz band together) and I asked how the gigs were going. He said that the band had filtered out this summer really as 'h was not a good organiser'. This isn't true normally, h always puts his heart and soul into those gigs and he also said he hadn't been paid yet for them either - all very unlike h. That was the only discussion of h really although he alluded to the wedding later and he said it with ease, not embarrassed like he shouldn't mention it, so I think I totally put him at ease about it. I said if he was playing any local gigs he should let me know and he wants me to send him my work newsletter so is going to FB me with his address and stuff.
When I got off the train he gave me a kiss and a hug and said it was really good to see me. I have to say he was the only one of h's friends that I liked and the only sensible one although we don't know each other very well. So we didn't talk directly about h, I wanted to respect the fact that he was h's friend and I didn't want it to look like I was fishing, also I don't need to fish, I'm just letting things happen naturally. Although it was so tempting to GRILL him and moan about h's lack of contact response and find out what was going on but that would make me look just awful. We just talked about activities and mutual things around h (music, Yorkshire etc). I don't really think he has much to do with h anymore but you never know, stuff may filter back. I told him about my music activites and some GAL stuff.
It was good to come across as confident and in control as well as sounding successful in my work etc. I was also pleased that I didn't look a complete wreck either
So, nothing may come of it but hey at least I have my pride and it was a DB opportunity. I don't get many of those right?!
(((Mishka))) avoiders are so annoying. This is the most frustrating part for me. I don't know how much longer I will go on without just snapping and organising the house sale/ divorce. It is a battle every day for me to not do that.
(((ITH, OD))) I included h in the general round robin email. I do not expect any response to that but I treated him as a friend. It has now been 2 weeks since I sent h the email. Grrrrrr. Still, I had a nice quiet weekend. I got loads of knitting done and then went into London on Sunday to go swimming then out for a meal and cinema with my friend in the evening.
(((JWS))) I miss you on my thread but I am so pleased that you no longer need this place and are more sorted in your life. I am touched you came back to visit me.
