It's official.......what now?

[ernest88]

You know who......really disturbing.

if you mean CG then i hope it disturbs you in a good way....

She and I are the masters of "wearing the mask". We perfected the art! Everything is "just fine" all the time with a plastered smile on our faces. No one sees our pain, no one hears about it. We deal with it.

acting as if.. I get it.

Slap-happy?

let's try to maintain the "slap Happy" for the immediate future..unless of course you want to go all batchitt..

There is no way I'm going to make it through these holidays without a major breakdown. I can feel it coming on already. There are so many coping mechanisms that I have heard about but the only one that appeals is curling into a ball, putting on earplugs, and staying locked in my room until after new year's.

OK...let's see..I remember telling you negativity sucks..let's attempt to stay positive. There are solutions for problems..Sometimes they don't show up immediatly and we have to hunt for them.

The radio station I listen to was advertising a new Christmas CD from one of the artists and I started hyperventilating in the car on my way home from church. It was horrible!

change the channel..listen to something else..let's stay away from country too..

The holiday reminds me of all the devastation that happened over this time last year.

let's change the trigger here..find a way to get back what you once loved.

I fear that Christmas will never be happy again for me because Gabe chose my favorite time of year to destroy my life.

Now...are you really gonna let this dude ruin Xmas for you forever?? You really gonna let him win?? with this?? You're actaully gonna give Xmas over to Batchitt crazy?? We gonna have to rename Christmas, Batchitt crazy day??

1)Can't get decorations down from the attic. Too heavy for me to lift through the tiny hole in the ceiling of the garage to the rickety step ladder and no one to grab them at the bottom.

CG will help here...or a neighbor...someone can help you get these down..it won't take 5 minutes..give me a break..

3)The decorations are full of memories I don't want anyway. Why would I want to look at all that crap that is going to tear me apart anyway? Forget it. It can all burn for all I care.

I don't believe that either..and a plus for putting things up..you can put up what you want and not have some DAM huffing and puffing cause it's not up right to suit him..

I'm still working on number 2..I will offer up this..as an alternative to doing something as far as gifts, have you ever thought of giving to someone less fortunate?? Like serving at a salvation army dinner/homeless shelter dinner?? They are always looking for volunteer servers....and it's true giving and costs nothing..