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I find myself wondering why he finds me so undesirable.


that's the road that alot of us hd women end up traveling. don't. trust me! just don't. it's not about us not being desireable or unatractive etc. it's more about them and their desire, libido or what have you. Not meaning to say that they are the ones with the "issue" but please don't make it about you. I for far too long have felt that it was about me, that I was fat or ugly or dirty or something negative and that is why he didn't want me. bull crap. I am thin, I am clean, I am damn sexy (no really I am!! not conceited just convinced) h just has a low or fluctuating libido is all...strange but true...there are men out there who don't think about or want sex all the time and women that do.

LL