It really means so much to me that you all are thinking of me!!!! I got out yesterday afternoon & mulched the leaves, the riding mower would not start so I had to push mow the front & back twice! I was exhausted & it was only about 45 degrees. It was down below freezing last night so when I went to bed, both dogs got in bed with me & I slept until 9am, I never sleep that late!!! I think that is the first good nights sleep I've had since all this mess started over a year ago.
I was pretty down today, but not quite as bad as yesterday. I started thinking about things he said to me & things that I read that he wrote OW, that really depressed me. I had to work on the "stop thinking" in my mind. I finally got it out, it's popped in a couple of times today but I'm really working on not thinking about it.
It just amazes me how close we were & for him to do & treat me like he did, I guess I'm still in shock. If he were in his right mind he would have never treated me that way, I really don't understand how OW can brain wash a man so much. A man I used to work for said whiskey & a woman can really mess with a mans mind & make him do crazy things.
Snodderly, thank you so much for the ideal, that sounds wonderful. I may try to do that!! You all are such a comfort to me, I don't know what I would do without all my friends here on this site!!
