Thank you. Sometimes I think you do have to ride the rollercoaster a little bit (not sure if you even have a choice). By riding, you realize that is NOT what you want to do and that is not what you want for your future.
I have realized that it is OK to be angry... I have every right to be. However, if I want to make progress, I have to not show the anger to my W. I have to follow the DB principles and I have to be the better choice over OM for my W.
MC... I wish I had looked a little harder to find the counselor months ago. She is a 1 hr 45 min drive for me, but well worth it. My W will be required to meet with her before we can get D. She doesn't necessarily have to participate, but she will have to make an appearance. And, with custody of my S in question, a court date will probably not happen until the middle of '09 at the earliest... so time is on my side.
