Another one bites the dust (2)

[No Longer BH]

Thank you everyone. I now dont feel so bad about the anger that I have been feeling. Do I have any hope left for our M? No, I truly believe he has thrown me away and is trying to move on. He still blames me for his unhappiness, so I cant see him ever having any desire to return. I do think, however, he wants me to be his friend so that he can feel ok about his choices.

Yesterday was STBXH day with S. He complied with the NC rule by waiting outside for S to come to him. He gets him from 10am - 6 pm on these Sat. By 1pm, I had a couple of text messages from him. He wanted me to pull out a couple of things and to get the title to the car he totaled. I did not respond but I did get them out. At 5pm, I was out with a friend and he text me that he will be dropping S off in 5 min. I had to respond "No, I am not home, you need to wait until 6." He replied that he would just go and hang out at the house and search for the title. I had all of my D paper work out at that moment and did not want him to see any of it. So, my friend and I get to race home and wait to see if he shows up. At 6pm he comes WALKING INTO MY HOUSE with S. I was so angry. I felt like he was violating my space and intruding into my life. So....tomorrow I am going to change the locks on the doors. Did not want to have to do that but I can see that in order to go truly dark with him, this is what I need to do. I even got a text last night telling me that he sent S an email. WTF?

Funny, before yesterday I think he has text me maybe 3 times in our entire lives. I honestly thought he would be happy about the NC.....a way to just get me out of his life. I truly just dont get him and have quick trying to anymore. It is an effort in futility.

On a more pleasant note, I am meeting "hot guy that doesnt seem so bright" tomorrow. I am looking forward to it and will let you all know how it goes. Thanks again everyone for caring enough to check in. I have been very tired lately so have not had a chance to catch up with everyone. Give me a couple more days and I will be stopping by to check in on all of your threads. It feels nice to be missed.