I not heard of much news coming out of Idaho except for Ruby Ridge or this guy, both of which are near Woogvile.
I've heard the snow in Idaho is light as a feather and is a real joy to ski.
As with several states in the west, it was the gold of Idaho that brought out the people. Woog - do you ever dig up any gold nuggets when working your garden?
Woog, Can you send some snow to Mt. Hood, PLEASE!! I've got new snow tires, and no where to go! Please don't make me go to THPRD (skatepark) with DAMson15 and all his friends! I'm the only cool mom there, the one wearing the superboots. Since I have sole custody (at the moment), we're starting to talk about where we'd like to live when it's all over. Lately, I'm feeling a need to be closer to my family, away from Portland. Of course, I'll need to wait for the Judge's take on things, but now that my job is in peril, I realize I can start over anywhere I want (assuming I retain full custody). Jobs come and go (unfortunately, I learned this in 2006) but no one will ever love these kids the way I do. So, if I get fired, we'll just start over. That simple. For the first time in many years, I feel like I have a say in what happens to me. And that makes me smile. Peace.
Me:44, WAW hx bi-polar H:48, hx of abuse S:22, S:19, D:16 Filed Oct 08, dismissed Filed again Jan 10, dismissed Now Piecing alter persona: SuperBoots
It’s a beautiful sunny morning here in north Idaho. It’s the end of fall and the leaves are falling. There is crispness to the air and the smell of fireplace smoke. The holidays are approaching and our little town has begun to decorate for the holidays.
I’m sitting here thinking about my life. My past and my future. I’m thinking about choices. Good ones and poor ones that I’ve made. I’m thinking about the fact that my life is what I make it. That if one door closes it is so another can open. I’m thinking about how love finds you in the most unexpected places and ways. I’m thinking about the decision to be happy.
It is up to me to make that choice and it is up to me to define what happy is in my life.
I fell in love when I was 18 years old. I married this woman after college, had 3 wonderful kids and what many would call a fairytale life. Except it wasn’t. She left me after 21 years together and 17 years of marriage.
In my darkest hour I found out a lot about myself. Lessons that I never wanted to learn. All important lessons, but ones that cost me a piece of innocence. But, in my darkest hour I also found something that I worried I had lost. I found that I my heart survived. But I also found that someone had stolen it when I wasn’t looking. And now, for a number of reasons that love remains unfulfilled. It appears that life is choosing to teach me yet one more lesson. I don’t know if it’s patience and perseverance it’s teaching me or something else.
I don’t know what is going to happen with my job. I do know that in the end I will be fine. I will figure it out and find a way.
I have a choice in what happens and where I go. I have a choice in what I want to do next and how to live my life.
There is a song that I have fallen in love with. It’s simple, but the meaning is deep for me. If you boil it down, it’s about the choice to be happy.
Can't you see that it's just rainin' There ain't no need to go outside
But baby, you hardly even notice When I try to show you this song It's meant to keep you From doin' what you're supposed to Like wakin' up too early Maybe we could sleep in I'll make you banana pancakes Pretend like it's the weekend now
And we could pretend it all the time Can't you see that it's just rainin' There ain't no need to go outside
But just maybe, like an ukulele Mama made a baby I really don't mind to practice Because you're my little lady Lady, lady love me Because I love to lay here lazy We could close the curtains Pretend like there's no world outside And we could pretend that all the time
Can't you see that it's just raining There ain't no need to go outside
Ain't no need, ain't no need Can't you see, can't you see
Rain all day and I don't mind
The telephone singing, ringing, it's too early Don't pick it up We don't need to We got everything we need right here And everything we need is enough It's just so easy When the whole world fits inside of your arms
Do we really need to pay attention to the alarm Wake up slow, wake up slow
But baby, you hardly even notice When I try to show you this song It's meant to keep you From doin' what your supposed to Like wakin' up too early Maybe we could sleep in I'll make you banana pancakes Pretend like it's the weekend now And we could pretend it all the time
Can't you see that it's just rainin' There ain't no need to go outside
Ain't no need, ain't no need Rain all day and I really, really, really don't mind Can't you see, can't you see
It is nice to hear that after what we have been through, your heart is still able to open itself up to someone...regardless of whether it was lost, then found or stolen. Actually it is more than nice, it is encouraging. It's nice to see people who I have grown fond of and have shared so much, learn to love again. I know this is not playing out the way you would have liked. Someone once (actually more than once)told me to stay positive. Something tells me this chapter in your life is far from over. In the meantime, keep your focus. Focus on your kids, focus on WOOG and to a lesser extent focus on your job....I have not heard the fat lady clear her throat yet. If she does decide to sing one day, well....if you could have your heart stolen once,it can happen again.
Peace.