wow girlie! are you gonna go? I hope you do, baby steps remember that. we just got an awesome space heater at wally world last nite, best 45 bucks ever! has thermostat setting and remote. i love it!
let us know how it goes, I am there in your heart if you need me!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Yep..actually we went, hub, son, and I..actually had a nice time..went to Wally World..got a few of the smaller heaters, they were like $25 each..but should do the job nicely..
We had a nice time at dinner, talked about the game and stuff about work and about son's video games and stuff, son did something silly and funny and we were cracking up as we were leaving..ahh..a moment of "normalcy"...
OK..so interestingly, while we were at Walmart looking at the heaters, there were a few I liked, and my hub said "whatever you want dear"..not sarcastically, just like he would have normally said..and then he almost said something about "I dunno hon.." but he stopped himself before the "hon" part came out..it was nice and interesting..
Anyway..I know..no expectations, or anything and, of course, I know the rule that usually after a day of niceness is usually a few days of not so niceness..but it was a very big babystep and I am very thankful for it!
OH..and, like I said yesterday, hub said he would be working on Thanksgiving and not to wait for him, TONIGHT he said "I'm covering call for someone on Thanksgiving, but I will TRY to get to eat with you guys at K&W or Cracker Barrel" or wherever I end up going
So there you go..a nice night 6 weeks post-bomb..I'll take it
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
Beth..yes..there were a few positives which I am happy about, but, to be honest, it's a WEIRD feeling, good and weird at the same time..and tough, because, while it was nice, I have to have no expectations, and I think I did a good job of not projecting any that my hub saw..I made sure not to while we were out..now I'm missing him a bit more..you know? (even tho he's just downstairs LOL)
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
I know, trust me, I know. I have walked away from every in person meeting with me H with such mixed emotions, happiness for the babysteps, missing him, sadness that we are apart, and, like you said, just a sense of weirdness, at the whole surreal mess.
I guess that's it, you know. Even after all these months, it's still surreal.
It sounds like you did a really good job of handling things. I am proud of you!
Aww thank you {{{Beth}}..I was pretty happy with myself too..just had fun, pretty much focused on our son more, but asked hub some questions about work and expounded on stuff that he said..but yeah..you pretty much summed up my feelings..
At least they are babysteps in the right direction instead of some major doozy steps in the wrong direction (LOL..which I've definitely made )
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
Sounds like dinner went well. I'm glad...just hang in there. Be tough!!!
I also wanted to comment on the school thing...you should do it...depending on how many credits you have already, you may still have general coursework to complete. If that's the case, you can do that before you even decide what you want to do when you grow up! So, look into it...it will make a huge difference in your outlook!!
And, MC's right (for a man, he seems to be right more frequently than many I know...LOL), there will likely be financial aid opportunities. That would be great GAL, and it might eventually lead to better financial security down the road, married or not!
Hugs to you!! Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
{{{Amy}}} Thanks that I Did ok with dinner..I'm just never sure, but I FEEL like I did okay..but I've missed him more today now LOL! Oh well
You are right about Tom being right pretty frequently..but did you HAVE to go and tell him..geez..LOL!
Here's my day..not so much GAL'ing but still a productive day:
1) Went to a new church (that WAS GAL'ing LOL)..I liked it, but I would like to go to the "regular" service..this church actually has 3 morning services and I went to the one at noon, so it was a shorter service..I wanna try to get to the one at 10 and see if it's different.
The message was about Paul and Silas praising during their trials (imagine) and about how, not only were they set free, but others noticed and came to Jesus because of them. Then they about things we forget about God..basically taking Him for granted..so it was a good message.. 2) Went about 30 minutes away to pick up a drum set for my son for a Christmas present (gotta love craigs list) 3) Went to the store to exchange a few things we got the other night at Walmart that were the wrong size for our heater 4) Went to do my weekly cleaning (I Have a building I clean) 5) Came home and actually MADE dinner (chicken pie with potatoes and green beans) 6) Colored my hair (and then got hair dye all over my carpet, so I'm mildly freaking out because I can't get it out..LOL..but..worse case scenario, I'll go get a fabric marker tomorrow and fix it up..gotta wait and see how it looks after it dries..argh..LOL..oh well..AND, in case you are curious, I didn't dye it any crazy color, just was tired of seeing those curious little gray hairs popping up
OK..so..now that I've spent an hour GAL'ing by madly trying to clean up my bathroom to very little avail (I think LOL)..
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
