When THEY let go of US

[LL44]

It was a warm fuzzy feeling to have the whole family at home at that point...the kids doing their own thing and us sitting at the table having a good conversation over a glass of wine

That's really good. Anytime xH and I have a good exchange, it leaves me happy. At peace. Of course, I (like you) hope/hoped for a different outcome, but I don't want anger between us either.

So I prayed to God, begged him to help H find his way home

I pray for xH to find his way. In life. Period. I pray for him to heal, with or without me. Anything after that is icing on the cake.

When they all left, I went about my own business, and to be honest I have become quite capable of that. I like being home alone again, I no longer feel too lonely.

This is wonderful.

SNOW SNOW SNOW! I am jealous! It was 20 degrees here this morning and in my book, if its gonna be THAT cold, just snow already!!!