N, The holidays are always tough for those of us who have had spouses walk away. I know that you are having some down times and that's okay. But, this is an opportunity for you to make some new memories and traditions w/your friends and family. I'm very glad to see that you are not spending the holiday alone. Enjoy the time you spend w/your family.
Maybe you might like to take photos and make a memory book for your parents? It would be a good way to stay busy and I bet you would enjoy doing it as well. I'm sure your parents would enjoy it. Be sure to take photos of the window and the siding that you and your father did in late summer. These are memories that you created and should be captured for sharing later on w/others.
N, Happy Thanksgiving!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
