I don't recognize her anymore

[faithisbelieving]

I've not posted much as I have been going thru an inner 'emotional backslide'. I'm having a rough time of it but I must work this thru. Renewed behavior of hers:going out late on Weds and Sats...boxes of new clothes...Crest White strips.....photos with me in it being dumped on my mail...

...But....I filed.

I don't need to see this so I need to rush my paperwork. It still hurts.

Why????

I changed D5 out of her soccer uniform today and she shows me a drawing she made demonstrating what appears to be a man and a woman standing together.
D5: Dad...know what this is?
Me: what honey?
D5: A man getting married to a woman...it's you and mommy
Me: It's a nice drawing honey
D5: I showed it to mom yesterday and she got a little bit sad. She said she needs to be apart to get happy. Is that true dad?
Me: We're all going to be very happy.

Tonite, D5 fell playing and was complaining of left arm pain. I took her to the ER. Left two VMs and eventually W responded ("the music was too loud"). She met me at the hospital. I made her a coffee and reviewed the X-rays with her. I signed the discharge instruction sheet,which, she insisted on signing as well.

My marriage is over and I need to move on.

FIB