New Me - Will WAW ever notice?

[Kakatal]

What a miserable experience that was! Geez, w looked like she wanted to be anywhere but out with the kids & me. W just looked so miserable & unhappy. I would just smile at her, get a blank stare back & then play with kids. Went to a mexican place - her choice. They screwed up the order - no surprise there. S4 didn't want to eat - nothing new there.

No conversation whatsoever. Asked w if she just wanted to get hers to go. If that is what M will look like I want no part of it!

Got kids into my car. Talked with w outside. Told her that she looked very tired & unhappy. W just said she is drained emotionally. She is going to SIL to watch their dogs & sleep there tonight.

I ask w if she recalls the offer I made to her earlier in the day about daycare. She says no. I start to say that there are 2 scenarios.

1) Is there any insurance for unlicensed daycare in CA where you only watch 1 family? Policy I found stated you had to have a license. Maybe there is insurance for this special circumstance.

2) I am willing to allow you to do daycare at house as long as you work towards getting your license back & thus insurance as well. W made some remark about insurance easing my mind & I stated that I was not about to risk my future wages being garnished for the rest of my life because a child died in my house. That is a risk I want to mitigate.

Asked w if she had given mother an answer yet. W said mother hadn't made a firm decision about returning to work.

W said that she never got renewal paperwork from county about daycare license expiring & will try to see on Monday if something can get worked out to where she just has to renew instead of start over. Said that would solve a lot of problems.

W thanked me for dinner, said to enjoy zoo. Probably won't talk to me tomorrow. I just said your welcome & bye. Got in car & drove off.

W doesn't want to come back from financial pressures, not for kids, not because of guilt, not because others say she should, would be trapped again. All negatives - just like you said Tim.
She ever going to see, consider or weigh the positives - only time will tell.