Organizing my Life

[BeingMe]

Well, here is the part I don't like about my H travelling. He is stuck at some airport because of Thanksgiving. And, probably won't be coming home for the weekend. Ugh! We spend so little time together as it is. We don't talk about much on the phone --- you know, the usual, "how are things going", "I did this at work", "did that at school", etc. We ML the weekend before last --- whoopdedoo! But, there was little intimacy in the act. He was awesome when I was going through this seizure thing (still happening, but much milder), but it's like he's gone back a few steps. Maybe he sees me as a family member that he cares about and doesn't like to see hurting? When the bomb was dropped, he said that a lot, "I care deeply about you, Deb, I just don't love you as a H should." Maybe that's how he still really feels.

Sorry, just feeling a little down today. Must get into my studies --- have a research paper due next week, and I still don't know what to write about. At least I am able to get away from real life a little when I'm busy with school stuff.