Hey Lisa, I'm a little confused, you were asking us what we thought? I never said anything about your life being on hold? You were asking what to do about CEO v H and saying you had been doing bad DBing by going for a drink with CEO? And what to do about your feelings for CEO? The speed up thing was to do with your posts about wanting to have children now you have hit 35? If you were a man/had kids already, that wouldnt be a problem and noone would suggest it might be time to make a decision soon?
Seems you have a very clear view then of what you are doing and why. I'm sorry if my suggestion to ask him at some point if theres any possibility he may want to try again with you was not helpful. If you dont want to do that, then yes, keep doing what you are doing if you are ok with that!
