It's official.......what now?

[mishka422]

I had an ok exchange with Gabe today. He came to pick up Marc from karate today and will have him with him until Monday afternoon since he's out of school next week. I was dreading seeing him but I took a notebook with me and was writing out responses I wanted to give some people here on the boards when I got home. When he arrived just before the end of class I saw him out of the corner of my eye but I didn't look up as I was writing. I finished my paragraph and then just looked up for a second and waved to him. That was it. I'm proud of myself for not reacting to him. I didn't get the nervous heart flutter I used to.

When class was over I told him to come and get Marc's bag out of the car. He followed me. Honestly, when I did finally look at him fully, he looks like CRAP! His hair looked oily and was standing up several directions, he hadn't shaved, he was wearing clothes that looked like they hadn't been washed recently (like he might be wearing them for the 3rd or 4th time!) and he looked beaten. Yeah, that's the word....beaten. Is it horrible that it made me feel really good? It's horrible isn't it? I feel happy that he's looking miserable. I don't know if that is how he is feeling or not and really don't care. He brought everything on himself.

I told him about Marc failing all of his classes and told him that if he has any other strategies for getting his grades up, please let me know. He was ticked about the grades but knows that there is nothing more I can do for Marc. If he choses not to bring home his homework or do projects and classwork, I can't help him. Gabe agreed with me on this but is otherwise useless, so......c'est la vie!

I had some very interesting dreams last night! I attribute it to freezing half to death all night since the power was out. I kept dreaming of being snuggled up to someone with their arms wrapped around me. It was comforting and a little overwhelming....:) NICE! I could use dreams like that every night. I might not sleep very well though.