{{{{{pm}}}}} I'm sorry to hear that things don't seem to be looking up very much.
It sounds like your H is still lost in the fog, thinking lots about himself - his wants, needs, etc. This is all such painful stuff, but if you can try to detach a little and not take his attitudes and selfishness personally. I know it's difficult, but if it can keep you from getting too discouraged and negative, it's worth it. Pray, my friend - I know I'm praying for you.
Remember, this is about him - his choice. I feel that my H would have made his bad choice no matter who he was married to. They feel so flattered - I think they're heads get so far up their a$$e$ - it's hard to believe.
I hope you have a better day - just try to concentrate on doing something nice for you and your children.
