Oh yeah, I shouldn't have kept drinking once I saw how emotional he was, which at the restaurant I did stop and he kept on. But my guard dropped at Roy's house, I hadn't intended to drink beer at all, but I was having fun and it was more relaxed. I didn't do it right at all when I brought up the calls on the way home. That was my fault and was beer inspired I know. I was right there on the idiot wagon with him at that point! I needed a good 2x4 then!
Yeah it is all him, right now, other than whose fault this is, that would be mine in his eyes. He feels I ruined the best thing in his life, me. I can't fix that. Then I feel he is ruining the best thing in my life...and he is and I can't fix that either.
