Well H did come home about 2:30 or so, I heard him drive in but didn't hear him come in, but came in and got a blanket from the bedroom. I guess that is good.
No H wouldn't hurt me, but he gets so enraged sometimes, that he just is an idiot. Almost to the point of being funny...not at the time.
I had to get him up this morning he was sleeping on the couch. I guess he knew I would get him up. I did all the stuff I would normally do. Last night he had said he was going to trim his beard sometime, so I asked him this morning if he had. H said no. I asked if he had plugged it in, H said no. So after he left, I plugged it in for him. He didn't say anything when he left, but his toothbrush and stuff were all still there, I guess that means he will be back.
I figured whenever I tried to put a boundary out there it would piss him off. I shouldn't have said anything about him calling her last night, but the call from the restroom on the way home from the game really pissed him off when I brought that up. I am guessing because he thought I didn't know.
I laid in bed last night and thought of other stuff that we said, but now I don't remember. LOL. Beer memory. H said last night you know I was F*cked up why did you start this. I said sorry, it was just there.
I don't think he will ever get over how he feels that I had an affair, and I think that will be the deal breaker. At one point I said that I hate that I can't tell you I love you. I also said something about being hurt and H said I hurt everyday. I said and you don't think I hurt? H says you don't act like it. I said I put on a really good show don't I. That almost makes me think the acting as if, isn't always good, maybe not in my situation. Who knows. So I am going to try and work on homework today, will be hard, may take a nap first, still pretty tired.
H takes things and runs with them, like I don't want him there, no I want him there, just not him with OW too. I guess that isn't an option for him right now.
Kel- Thanks for checking on me this morning. How is the couch going? Listening to QVC the caller is from Florida, says it is very cold there.
