...and you know what else? Maybe you are inadvertently making it harder for your H? He has no idea what you are thinking, you have played the game so well. My C talks alot about how people look for openings, that if you do the brave thing of taking a little step toward them, it makes it easier for them to take a step toward you and mirror ...I tried it on a friend earlier this year (who holds alot in).. she responded with relief and began opening up little by little.. now, we are as close as we could be and she feels that she can tell me anything (eventhough its still hard for her). I see your H like this. Stuck.
I'm rambling, but I think it could be possible to break the deadlock, but you may have to be brave.
