Hey Lisa, I waded through and looked at all the pics!
I would Hate to be in your shoes---sigh I wish!
I am thinking that nothing much will change until you take a leap of faith and actually make a decision ??? eanie,meanie,mini,mo (sp?)
How long do you think CEO will be available? How long do you think lovely but very much absent H will play you? -sorry but I feel he is.
Not sure about the "deciding " to love him. You do, but it is how far your willing to take it. Maybe no men at all for a while might tell you who you would miss most.
Hope head gets better soon.
Maybe time for a "are you ever coming home" convo, or where do you see yourself in 5 years?
