Carlos, welcome. I found, for me, moving to this part of the Forum was the beginning of healing. i cant say exactly why, maybe it was the decision to let her move out without pursueing. maybe it was the realization that it was over for us and i could therefore let go. maybe it had nothing to do with moving here and was a complete coincidence.
but i think its more of a frame of mind, like moving from jr high to high school. that somewhat naive belief that i've grown up.
i dont question it too much, its really not important, what is important is the fact that i sleep at night, i smile during the day, i catch myself humming random tunes, i wander the hallways at work to catch the eye of some unknown beautiful co-worker just for that little spark that shoots up my spine, you know the one, its like a sweet version of fillings chewing on tin foil.
i'm hopeful for my future, i thought i was hopeful while over in Newcommers, but now its different, this hope has a more refined taste, a little nutty with caramel and dark chocolate.
Carlos, you obviously live in your head a lot, give yourself some time-off, force yourself to empty your mind for a little while. you must be exhausted. go watch Eddie Izzard - Dressed to Kill
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".
