And be careful Tim, you're working yourself up into a good case of being pissed off at your wife.
I know...in some ways I guess I already am...good read on that one.
Well, I have to go home and work on the living room.
Tim
Sooo...today I am trying to work on not being pissed off at my wife...Thanks, Bill.
You suggesting that maybe I test the waters a little and confront her with what I am feeling made me realize that maybe I am not really ready to hear the wrong answer right now.
Had a similar discussion with Smartcookie a few days ago, and I know at some point I need to take that chance, put myself out there and find out where we stand.
When the time and the mood is right, I will take the opportunity to make sure she is aware of my feelings and that I love her and want the marriage to work.
If that pushes her away again, then so be it. She can know that I will be OK with out her and that I will survive, but she also needs to know that I would much rather fight for us than give up. For the past 7 months I believe I have shown that through my actions, but when the chance arises, I am going to make sure she hears the words.
Right now, though, with the holidays and us working together on the house, I feel like I need to let her have her thoughts to herself and continue on this different path we started.
She continues to remain close to me and home. The evenings out with the girls and time away from home for her is rare, and we continue to ease back on our own excess....realizing together that we had been over spending, over indulging (maybe over compensating?) and I see her now wanting to get back on track. I want us to be able to have fun, enjoy ourselves, talk and communicate...knowing that it was not because we were partying or going out, or taking off for a crazy weekend.
Some of the roller coaster I am experiencing lately has something to do with that, and I think back to advice from you, FG and others early on in my sitch.
Although I know that the fun we have had over the months will not come to a complete screeching halt....I have to realize that with some normalcy(if that what it is), will come good and bad days. We can't party every day or go away every weekend and we won't end up in the bedroom ML and being crazy all the time. Those times are great, but it is time to see how this relationship functions in the real world.
But...I still have to show her that no matter what we do, or how mundane the times may be, I will be here for her and continue to treat her with respect and cherish the time we have together.
I see how hard it is to hide the frustration and impatience I have been feeling. Last weekend when we were out she told me I seemed annoyed with her. Yesterday, I found myself letting her text messages go unanswered, when in the past it did my heart good to know she was contacting me just to chat or say hello. Last night when we got home and got ready to work on the living room, I pulled her to me and gave her a hug....and she asked me what was wrong.
Have to remember that she feeds off me, just as much I do her and like FG has told me a hundred times...
