Yes I have been reading the script. Its much more detailed than I thought and I don't want to screw it up. I'm gonna get it really memorized and shoot for a lovely call Monday morning! Whoo Hooo!
So was in the jacuzzi with DS10 last night. H calls at 8:30 to talk to DS10. They talk for a few about different things and then H asks DS10 if I am in the jacuzzi with him and he says yes. (Boundary tester)H tells DS10 to say hi to me. I say nothing and nod and DS10 keeps on talking about random stuff.
I am determined. I am not coming out of Plan B. Not until he leaves OW. I did a great Plan A and not ruining it by contact. I do not have grace in my heart to spend Thanksgiving, Dec 9th(19 year anniversary) and Christmas with the white elephant in the room that everyone sees and acts like its not there. Sorry bud, dump her that's it. I am prepared to make it to April 23rd which is 1 year of Discovery at that time I will decided whether or not I want o go further. In my heart I feel giving a person 1 year to figure out if they love you is fair. I'll just have to see how i feel.
But I definitely don't want to spend Thanksgiving with him in fog land, it would only ruin a perfectly great day.
Anyways I'm off to do some errands....be back later....
Me-38 H-38 Married 18years Daughter-17 & Son-9 Discovery of EA/PA 4/23/08 Left home 5/08/08 Moved in with OW 08/01/08
The only rock I know that stays steady, the only institution I know that works is the family. -- Lee Iacocca
