Just caught up a bit and all I can say is OMG. Sorry for you man.
I can relate to the pressure build up. Been there. All I can suggest is to turn and mentally (at least) run from the bait. Try to not engage if you can feel yourself ready to explode.
I know that you know that...
Be strong. Take care. And extra hugs for the K's. You apologized to the K's - they saw that. They know bro, they know...
LIS
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No one ever has, or ever will, escape the consequences of their actions.