Hey Paul. I will be looking for that update. You sound good - better than I considering we are both 3-yrs post bomb. My birthday is Monday. I got bombed when I turned 50 so I hope your 50 is better than mine was.

Thanks for stopping by SDad. Yes, all we can do is do the best we can given the hand we were dealt.

Nothing much to report. Feel better but still stuck. Kind of in a rut - work, eat, read, sleep (sleeping a lot). Also a bit down since the holidays are upon us. I will not see my kids this Thanksgiving. That sucks. I do get them for Christmas (20 Dec through 25 Dec at 6:00 pm) but it still hurts that they do not have a whole family to share Christmas morning with. This is not the first year but it still hurts.

In fact, the Thanksgiving - Christmas period was always a favorite - now I dread it and feel the failure, my failure.

I will do the best I can and shoot for after Christmas to get my life in order. I have to get the house fixed and I have to get off my a$$ and do those GAL things I want to do. Like FIB says, springtime is rebirth - but I plan to start Dec 26th.

Little interaction with former W and that is okay with me. She did call Sunday to tell me that D7's ears were infected (she recently got them pierced) and that an earring backer had skin around it. She started to cry and said she should have checked D7 closer. I told her it was not her fault and that D7 would be fine once she goes to the doctor. But former W freaked out - I listened and calmed her down.

I guess she had no one else to call.

After they returned from the Doc she was happy at first (D7 was fine) but then got cold again - "I called just b/c I thought you should know".

The next day she emailed me on a different topic but added a "thank you for being understanding yesterday".

My son also told me that former W and the kids took my mom out to dinner Monday (it was my mom's birthday last week - # 91). Interesting that former W would do that. Can't figure; I thought she cut that string too.

Overall, I wish she would just leave things alone.

I do get to see my kids on my Birthday. S11 is spending the night but D7 wants to go home to mom after cake. D7 is not handling this at all well. Last night she was talking about the "time you and mom split". It sucks.

All for now.


Jeff

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