Hi Jeff...wow, we are all rooting for you, I hoipe she got the letter, I hope she responds somehow (shes bound to).. and lastly, I hope you are ok !!! My blood pressure is going up just thinking about it all, we are all here, as always
Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
Mornin' Jeffy Poo...My thoughts and prayers are with you today...((((JEFF)))))
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I am at work this morning, though not early, I must admit!
I slept more than I expected. Had some weird dreams! Can't remember quite enough to make sense of them, but they were sort of apocolyptic, end of the word stuff. Steam out of the ground, nothing to eat, that kind of thing.
Anyway, she woke me up this morning to tell me my timing was rotten. She was upset that I'd given it to her on a day that she was taking a quilting class that she'd been looking forward to, then working the next two days, then having to clean the house for guests, then Thanksgiving, then Christmas shopping, etc., etc., etc. I said that there was no good time. She said that was true, but spring would have been better. On the surface some of that makes sense, but given our history it seems to me that she is again making it clear where taking care of the M fits on her priority list. And that she isn't in a hurry to change anything. She did say that because of all of this "stuff" I shouldn't take her lack of timely response as a rejection. (Not the exact words, except for the rejection part.) So, it seems that she intends to respond, someday. OF course I don't know how she intends to respond.
She said that I misinterpreted her rejection of going to talk to my C. She says that she doesn't think she has any place talking to my C. I understand what she is saying, but I don't know. The words and the tone that she used when she said she wouldn't go don't match up with her statements now, in my opinion. I could be wrong, I suppose.
The good news is that she did say the letter was beautifully written! Thanks to all of you!
The bad news is I don't have any idea when she'll respond, and I can't push it. From what she said it could be a while. I am really afraid of falling back into the status quo, yet again. I guess this isn't the time to worry about that.
At first, I couldn't believe all the negative crap about this being "bad timing" for her - GRRRR!!!!
But then when she attempted to explain her meaning behind why she said "why would I?" to attending C'ing with you, and adding that the letter was beautiful....well I'm just blown away! Wow.
Hopefully someone else will have something better to say!
(((((((Jeff)))))))
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
