God grant me the patience and the strength...9

[theotherhalf]

Whoa! I am starting to think that I have a real communication problem. I am so misunderstood here and in the real world. Maybe that is why H won't talk to me.

I did not mean to say that ANYONE is telling me not to be who I am.

try and get it out of your head about sitting next to him, being romantic. It takes a long time to get to that point. He is going to feel so much pressure from you and will rebel like a teenager

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You have got to get it in your mind that you are just friends and act like it. This means less pressure felt by him

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waaaaaayyyyy TOO SOON!!!

Kind of pretend like he is not there

To me these words say to just let him be and don't do the things I have been talking about. Wrong?

I guess at this point I'm wishing I would have stayed in the shower with him longer and washed his back. Enjoyed the moment longer. It's what I wanted to do but afraid it was too much too soon. If I feel like climbing on the couch with him, why not? Right now he's doing ALL of the intiating in anything sexual or touch or closeness. That is the way it was for us for the last 5+ years or more. I want that to change. I want to show him that I want him. I want to touch him. Why not now? If I wait will it be too late?

the woman who runs all over town and chases down her H and ow and gets caught

That was the part of me that I got from my mother and tried so hard to keep buried. A huge mistake that I made. One that will not be repeated. Guaranteed!

Do you suppose this is the same thing your H has been feeling for years while he worked without you?!

Absolutely. And I've known this for a long long time. But neither one of us knows how to change it. I am trying. He's stuck. I can't change how he feels or make things better for him. But I can show him a light.

Is this different in reality than how it sounds when you post it? that sounds like a spoiled brat that should get grounded for sassing off. You've done it before. Is this the real you or the changed you?

No WCW, I see what you are saying but it didn't come off like that. I said that to my H because I am so hurt and angry at him for sooo many things. But right now he is not ready to hear all the why's. It was a short and to the point way to say "Damb you for wanting to leave AGAIN!"