Hi - summary Me A 8 months 2005 2 x Physical. I denied it. H left and came back for next 2 years I Told truth April 08 H moved back in April 08 H moved back out Aug 08
Since then I have had oodles of advice . I am trying to Db and do 180
3 weeks ago H informed me he was going out with another W Friend only - Hmmmmm. I go no contact and send him list of boundries.
Today i had a meltdown and I called H. He came to me and spent 2 hours holding me , telling me how I need to move on etc etc. He also said lots of mean things, he probably did not mean them too be cruel but they were. I recognise the behaviour as when I had OM.
I am sooooo down. I have to go away with friends tomorrow to Aussie and I cannot keep anything down in my stomach. I know I have to go and have fun. Nothing I can do.
H is minding kids once he is back from poker tournament. He does not like staying in the house now ? He said make the guest bed up as he wont sleep in our bed ? He said get the house fixed so we can sell ? He said after I had sent him the list of boundries that he went back to his councillor who advised him not to buy into my pain? I have been with this guy 30 years , how can he not feel my pain. He said ..... I would love it if you contacted OM again and got him to leave his wife and then dump him ?????? but you cant have sex with him? Or we both sit down with OM and his W and tell OMW the truth ( she does not know )?
Have I lost H to a darker side? or have I just lost H
Today the day before i go to Sydney I have another meltdown.
