My WAS's mother was also a WAS. She died at 59 years old alone and had felt guilty and shameful her whole life. It never resolved even when she became a Christian. It is hard to wake up every morning and look in the mirror when you do something that horrible. I believe only counseling/therapy, sincere remorse, and God would help you heal.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11