Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

[phbear316]

I found out via a very good source someone I trust with my life yesterday, my stbex's old partner that he confirmed that H and best friend did have an affair.

He says that stbex told him the truth.

I was angry, I was hurt, I was very upset. Please note the one key word WAS.

I allowed my self to cry, to be angry and upset last night. I woke up about 4am with a horrible pain in my stomach. I sat up and asked myself why are you letting this happen to you? Letting yourself beat yourself up. I got up got a glass of water, turned on the tv found one of those music channels and just listened to the music, I was sound asleep in like 10 minutes.

When the clock went off this am, I was totally fine. Why should I waste my tears on stbex.

God bless my friends who were there for me last night. My one friend was late coming to dinner and I was crying I did not want him to see me crying so I just said I will go and heat your plate and I guess he could tell in my voice something was wrong. He ran after me and was like whats wrong tell me. I told him, he was so sweet and supportive he gave me a huge hug. And he just said 10 more days baby!!

He is right 10 more days to my freedom, to my new life. I am so tired of crying tears and wasting energy on stbex. I am emotionally exhaused, over this. And I don't want to be anymore.

I felt and feel played a fool by H. But that will pass in time. I know it will

hugs
bear