I am consumed with jealousy !

I am not sure there is OW but he has said if nothing else he is ready for OW. Him going away is likely to be a tounament. I know have booked it weeks ago. Is OW going 50/50. Not much point for overnight tournament which may take hours and hours. H is not saying anything anyway.

i sent another mail today letting him know I will move out of this house every 2nd weekend until he gets his own place. Our sitch is to hard on kids. Financially he cannot get his own place just yet.

I also told him that I was still working on disconnecting from him as husband, lover and that in order to help , I dont want to know anything about what he is doing.

Why oh why am I ok if i think he is miserable and alone and when I dont think that i fall into pits of despair?