nc... you know what doesn't make sense is, he says im so negative... so when I ask him not to do something he takes it as im being negative... HS.. give me a break.. so basically I can't ask or say anything to him that may rub him the wrong way BS!!
Im not putting up with it anymore, if he wants to dish crap out like that with me, im just going to go completely dark. Im sick of caring so much and getting nothing in return.. like "how are you feeling?" It hurts my heart so bad that this man doesn't realize what he has in front of him. Ive been supportive and faithful to him for 20 years (17 married) Im not saying I don't have my faults, but his direction and attitude towards me outweighs my faults. Im stubborn as is he, and he has a High sex drive and I don't, but I think partly that is because of his treatment of me. He depresses me so, who would want to at that point.
Im interviewing a new housekeeper tonight, hopefully she's good. Im going to have her come Sat. before the party on Sunday and that will be a load off my mind.
I won't say anything or start anything with him for the next 3 days until S2's bday is over. I don't want to spoil it for them.
Anyways, thanks for the wishes.. and no he won't go to counceling, he'll tell me he doesn't have time, too much work.
Ya whatever..
If he only understood how much he hurts me, actually I don't think it would matter.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
