How to start from scratch in 12 Mos Separation ?

[SingleDad]

Thank you Kakatal and Little Engine - I appreciate your comments.

I am doing my best as a human, father, and actually still a husband to accept that my WAW is striving to find a new life and new man for herself, she is being selfish, and ignoring the impact her actions have on others - but I fequently slip and have trouble talking to her without her getting angry with me (which happpens anytime she wants something and I don't freely give it up).

On a news front:

I think my WAW just learned that the "grass is not greener on the other side".

She called on the drive into work about parenting time... complaining that I keep taking parenting time away from her...(even though she has more than I do). I scheduled a vacation day for 11/21 and 12/5 which is supposed to be the whole day. My W told me she is taking our D3 at 5 pm "because it's her weekend" - and that I keep trying to "change the rules". So I said "wait a minute - so now you want the rules to be that if I take a vacation day, I only get her until 5 pm... but on your vacation days you get to keep her overnight ?" After arguing about it she said "well at least for now" (likely meaning that as long as she is alone again until she has another BF to satisfy her).

Then I said "It's a Friday night - why don't you just go out with your boyfriend" She replied "I wish that were the case". Then I mistakenly said "What, did he leave you ?" Then she screamed at me a few words angry words along with "A$$hole" and hung up. She had also mentioned last week that "all men are jerks - men will just never get it". She has also mentioned she "has had her own problems" that she does not want to discuss with me.

So either her BF broke it off with her - he used her for sex - or he is not being nearly as "moldable" as she demands in a man. Either way, lately my WAW has been as real b!tch - and I can't see why any man would want to have a real relationship with her at this point.

I know it was a mistake to even mention her BF and listen to her wrath - I am not sure why I said anything - other than me being human and knowing my WAW is/was with another man.

Still she wants to lead a truly free and independent life (except for my financial support)... She hasn't yet experienced enough hardships to ever consider coming back to her family - and may never.

...Nothing going on on my dating front (match.com)... seems nobody wants to date a "separated" man... understandably... (and I do not want to lie about my status). I am not sure I want to be dating either... but I know I do not want to be alone, especially for the holidays.