Haven't been keeping up on the board quite as much lately, so I'm not completely filled in on the recent developments in your situation. It sounds like your husband has been living at home for a couple weeks?
Don't make the mistake of putting all your eggs in this one basket. It's easy to assume that if you don't get it right during his time at home right now, that you will have blown any chance you had of seeing things reconciled. I do not believe that is so. It is an opportunity yes, but not a last chance.
If you continue to look at it like that, you will only put undo pressure on yourself and make it more difficult to proceed. This is already causing you confusion and uncertainty, in part I think because of the great weight you have placed on this time together.
Could this be him easing back in to your life together? Possibly. It could also be as simple as a matter of convenience while the truck is being repaired. It could be that you have made him feel it is safe to stay, it is also convenient, so he has decided to go for it. Too much guessing going on though. It would be far better to embrace the situation for the good in it, and do your best to remain true to your boundaries.
Would your husband be allowed to simply come back this way? Just wondering.
I guess if I were in your shoes, I would do my best to embrace and enjoy the fact that I had him at home. I would see this as a daily opportunity to let him see the changes that I have made in myself. And I would do my best to be ME. No shows, no facades, just ME, who I am, the way I am, the things I feel, and how I show the things I feel.
And let the chips fall as they will.
Being honest with who you are in everything that you do can be difficult, but only because you are taking the chance that who you are is not what your spouse is looking for. The benefit is that you do NOT have to pretend to be somebody else.
Those days should be long gone.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
