I was lurking for a few months as well. That is natural. The other posters here gives us the confidence to reach out for help. Everyone is very kind. Take your time, you will know when it's time.
Thank you so much for your comments on forgiveness. I feel the same way. Love IS a decision and when we make that choice, which I did and I told my H about it, he was not receptive. Doesn't matter. Love is patient, love is kind, it doesn't make demands. So that is what I am consciously trying to do. Love can be one-way. I know H is deep, deep into A so it feels like love to him. I know it feels real. But I think love goes more than feeling lustful or feeling that you cannot live without another person. Love also means forgiveness and unconditional giving. It's a difficult choice, love is. But I am a stubborn woman and am not afraid to challenge myself.
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
