Lisa, thank you for having so much confidence in me. Sigh, if only h could see the new confident me, although hopefully he will have seen from the communication we have had. He has stopped 'worrying' about me by sending me texts asking how I am etc as he was in June/ July. Is that a good thing? I take it that he isn't thinking about me as I am not hearing from him but perhaps that isn't reality.
T, the whole thing is bizarre. I think it is lots of those things on some level. His attitude since recovering from the illness has been avoidance of everything so it could be an ultra extreme extension of this. I think it is mostly guilt and also wanting to provide for me. I truly believe that he still cares about me on some level and doesn't know what to do about me. Perhaps he is hoping that time will sort it out with no need of action from him, or that I will finally crack and sort it out so he doesn't have to (this is a real possibility). I do worry slightly as he had started contacting me off his own back and we were having good interactions and this email has shut those down. Perhaps because I have stopped playing his avoiding game. However, while we were having those positive interactions and baby steps he was developing his relationship with ow and making plans to move in with her so I don't know what to make of that. As you say conjecture. WTF knows!
Ali, thank you for checking on me it means a lot to know you do. I too am very curious, but I have to try and keep it at bay. Time is passing and he has not responded...
Dan, is moving in with her not showing commitment??
So, thinking about my goal of friendship with him... I was going to send a circular email to all my friends telling them about my carol concert. Should I include him in it? He is my 'friend' and it would fit with my plan before discovering his moving in with ow to develop communication and friendship. But is it giving him an excuse to respond to that rather than my other email or it may prompt him to respond which I am not sure I want to do, I would rather him respond off his own back. Should I just stop worrying about every little thing I do and be my natural self with him again which would be to let all my friends know about my concert that I am excited about. Plus, being friendly before was working... should I keep doing it?
Other news (that is not really news) is that I have checked the joint bills account and it is still healthy. He has been doing some transferring and paying stuff in and back but has not told me what he is doing. I don't know what he transferred the money for or to where but he put it back in again so not my problem I suppose.
Hmmm, I'm all about the analysis today! My stomach is telling me it is lunchtime...
