Thanks Lan, none of what you wrote made any sense except the Winnie the Poh part but I am not going to worry about it...
GFI, I did the same thing withe the C. We came to a point where I only went there for a drink (she used to serve a scotch during our late night sessions) and for the laughs (I made her laugh). After a while she said she had nothig else to offer to me...
I guess this is the time when after the panick and the emotional stress you can really stand back and look at the situation "objectively" and most of all focus on the REST of your life, not just your M. Next stop: detachment. Not "as if detachement", pure, solid, good detachement. And if you are lucky this will come across to your S and things may start turning around. I havent had the time to go back and read at your posts and see what has happened but I will.
Can you feel that you have the "power" to "create" certain reactions from her? Can you tell if some things you do catch her by surprise? Can you feel that she is not that unpredictable anymore? Do you have the defense mechanisms in place yet that save you hurt and stress? I am just wondering... Once you get hold of yourself, regain your "coolness" (which I think you have judging by your posts) you can really start showing her who you are... xxx K
