I am Thankful For...

[Dawn of Hope]

Hi, SirPrize!

I'm in Seattle! Under "Knight" in the phone book!!

With the first name of "White," right? I have several friends in Seattle, but to my knowledge, none of them are separated--or have kids!

You know what, I think deep down, my wife knows I'm a good guy. She knows. It's not me. It's her. She's having trouble.
I am not trying to be funny here.

She is much less aggressive now. I mean, the police are no longer coming to my door. She's not insisting that I stay away from the kids.

But after all this, how can she possibly come back? I mean... She'd basically have to sacrifice herself to come back. It's just not possible. After all the water under the bridge, I don't think she can turn back toward me. It just makes her feel worse. Honestly it would have to be a Road to Damascus thing.

She sees the kids with me, she knows.

Well, it's good that she knows, at least. And yes, to come back after everything she has done, she would have to do whatever the female equivalent is of "man up," and that is hard for women too. However, the God I believe in is in the miracle business...every day.

Dawn, how late are you staying up tonight?
When do you wake up anyway? You go to sleep at 5am. When do you wake up?

Very kind of you to ask! Last night I finally went to bed at 6:30 a.m., didn't go to sleep until 8 a.m., dragged myself out of bed at about 12:30 p.m. today because I had to be somewhere at 1:30. Definitely not enough sleep--I need about 9 hours per night to feel good. Now it's 2 a.m. and I would have liked to be in bed already, but I just had my first meal in almost 24 hours (wasn't trying to fast). My usual pattern (which I want to break) has been to go to bed around 6 a.m. and get up about 3 p.m. Yeccch, not the greatest feeling to realize you habitually sleep more than half of the daylight hours...especially in the winter when it gets dark by 5 p.m.! I used to think it didn't matter that I was on a different schedule than the rest of the world, but I'm in the process of changing that view. I have come to realize that I waste a LOT of time on a small number of activities...some of which, I'm beginning to believe, are symptoms of OCD. And there are other activities that aren't bad in themselves, but I spend more time on than is good for the balance with the rest of my life.

So, that's probably more than you wanted to know! What's new in your world? What is SirPrize thankful for today?

Peace and blessings,
Dawn

P.S. I'm not a roadster expert, but H and I have a Miata, and it is almost illegally fun to drive...would be more fun if it weren't showing its age (it's a 1991 with close to 200,000 miles on it--it has really held up quite well, considering). When we were hanging around with a lot of other Miata-philes, the joke was that it was like a BMW Z3 with $20,000 attached to the hood.