It's official.......what now?

[mishka422]

It's just really painful to watch Gabe playing "happy family" with the broom. I guess that's the problem, not so much that Marc is being exposed to it. I really think it's my own wounded pride. My head spins with so many thoughts all the danged time. Those questions I'll never get answers to.

Why wasn't I good enough?
Why couldn't he just talk to me about how he was feeling?
What could I have done differently?
Why won't he tell me what I did wrong so I will never make the same mistakes?
What is the point in any of this?
What the hell is wrong with me?

Yeah, all those darned questions. Stupid.

I'm so wired from work tonight and now I can't go to sleep and have to be up in 5 hours. Oh yeah, going to just be lovely tomorrow! Thank God for makeup! Covers those black circles under my eyes really well.