It did sound hopeful. At one point I did think so. Tonight she said she wanted to talk sometime and be honest. I told her now was a good time.
She went with the I've tried to get my feelings of intimacy and back. The famous ILYNILWY. She cares for me deeply but does not have it in her anymore to try. She has tried for the last couple years ect. I would never be able to trust her. She wants to be independent, happy. You all get the point.
I told her I was not the same person anymore. That with the right actions and thoughts the right emotions follow. I was not arguing with how she felt, just what I believe.
When I went to leave she asked me how I felt. I told her she had her perspective I had mine. There was nothing I could do about it and would see her tomorrow.
There is not a whole lot to say about it. It did stop the conflict of part of me that keeps trying and the larger part that says the h@ll with this.
I do know that if we both worked hard then we could have a wonderful marriage. She is still stuck in the same spot she was in June. Time to start going on with my life and see what happens.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
