Found you, WCW!

Oy vey is Yiddish. I grew up with a lot of Jewish friends, and now I say stuff like that. \:\)

WCW, you are saying wise things that my counselor friend said to me as well. I decided that I wasn't willignng to end this R based on this rumor. I may never know what the truth is about this, but I'm choosing to ignore it and move forward. This limbo WILL end one day when one or both of us can end it definitively. I'm not afraid of divorce, and I'm not afraid of waiting until I know for sure. Not today, anyway.

Your point about time passing is a good one. Today I found out that a FF at work is pregnant. We've hadups and downs in our friendship--at first she was very supportive of my choices; then she wasn't and didn't want to hear about it again; then she sort of apologized and extended her hand. I've cautiously become friends with her again, but I don't share stuff about my M with her. She had an A and went back to her H--this is why I turned to her initially. Now they've rebuilt their M and are expecting. I am happy for her...and also jealous. She is 6 months younger than me. Now I'll turn 40 without a child, and she'll be a mom by the time she turns. I know that sounds petty. I want a happy M and a baby, too, that's all. How would I be living diferently if we were divorced? Maybe I'd be dating, but I'm not sure much else would change. All in all, I'm content with the things I do. I need to get back on the GAL horse for sure. I've let stuff go because of work--being tired, etc.

I called H yesterday to check in. He ended up coming over, and we made popcorn and drank wine and watched parts of old horror movies--this is something we used to do all the time in happier days. He called right after he left to tell me he saw a giant shooting star. I made the wish for him \:\)

I see that he bought his ticket to PA for the annual family hunting trip--he leaves on Thanksgiving, so I don't need to wonder if he's showing up or not. Now I need to decide what I want to do. Jamaica is out of the quetstion this time. ;\) I have an invite to FF1's house, but I'm not sure how I feel about that right now. I'll probably go and enjoy myself but will be careful not to discuss H with her.

Ok, that's it. Be well, friends.

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