I can't make any plans either..I still don't know how much we are going to have to pay the mother of his child....it just makes me sad....can't help it..
H was here last night when I got home...he picked son up from basketball practice....he was on his laptop and helping son with his homework...started talking to me and I forgot for a minute we were separated....he took my trash can down to the curb....and I had told him something was wrong with my car...he looked over the car put fluids in it and came back in the house...
I had told my son to take a shower but he was very hesitant going up the steps starring in the kitchen at his father and me having a peaceful...laughing conversation...didn't know how to react....
When he was done with his shower he ran down the steps saying, "is dad still here"....I said, "yes"...
He came back to the kitchen and said, "K, gotta go back to work, I'll talk to ya"....and he left...
Tonight he picked up son again and came in for a few minutes...I've been fighting horrible headaches and no sleep...I think it's all just getting to me ....I was a little irritated this evening... H fixed a few things for son and then he just left....said, "I gotta go back to work, bye.." that's short for I'm going to OW house....
Anyway....I'm just trying to get through a day...day by day....one day I'll wake up and I won't be sad anymore....I hope!
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
