Trying2Live-Post #5

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{{{{{{{T2L}}}}}}, how are you? what have you been doing to keep busy? Did you find a new mediator to speak to H if needed? Thinking about you often. I think this might take awhile for H to come around. I am sure he is going through all of the emotions and still wanting control. They have had control for so long now it will be hard for them to give some of that up and come out of the fog. Praying for you.

Saw H at meeting. Looks like h@ll. He stopped at my desk to pick up mail. We made some small talk. H asked if I booked for CT yet. I said no but have to do it. Said D15 does not really want to go. H said he wants to see D15 but I should say to her when I go out that her Dad needs to stop over or say that Dad needs to give her a ride. In his eyes he thinks that D is not seeing him because he is a low down cheat but because D15 can probably get away with more than if he was in the picture...fog babble babble babble. I cut that one down quick. I said she has been really good, helping at at home (stretch the truth), and has been really good. I said she is hurt and is masking it with anger.
Then I slipped -- said I know you were not happy but you really did things wrong by going out with OW. She does not need you -- we need you. (darn it!). Then H says see we start off good talking then you wreck it by getting emotional. I said sorry but I am not perfect and sometimes it does really hurt but I have been good and keeping busy and making sure that D15 is good and happy.
Then H says if you don't want to tell your family about us you can always tell them that I went to see my sister for X-mas and that is why I am not there. ??????? H said I also have told no one from work (yeah to his benefit since he can carry on his A). H then says after the New Year -- then we will talk...So I said talk about what? I do want to remind you that if you decided to ask me for a D that you need to remember that I am getting my own L, claiming adultery, and naming OW. H looked pained. I said you asked me to be fair well you were not fair at all with us. You need to know that. This is my biggest fear that his game plan is to wait after the holidays and hit me with that. I swear it will be the longest D in the history of Tx! I will delay it as long as possible. Then H leaves but I get a hug out of it!! Put me in the funny farm...

T2L, need to talk about script. Ready action.

All, thanks for your input. Glad you are getting out there and meeting new people. I know it is hard to make friends sometimes, but recently I have been going out more with a neighbor and another friend so it helps tremendously. As for your sister you need to confide. Family are pains but they do have our best interest.