New Me - Will WAW ever notice?

[Kakatal]

W calls to let me know she doesn't have to work tonight. Asks if I am still getting my haircut - don't know yet, will call. Little chit chat about kids - says she hasn't killed them yet. They went swimming in spa. I act surprised - she asks why - just say I haven't been in spa in month, glad to see someone is using it. W then says that kids are fine - didn't kill them. I ask if she was planning on killing them. She laughs & says that she just meant that kids survived playing in spa.

W added water & checked chemicals in spa - thank her for checking that. W says she did our laundry but I have to fold & put it away - thank her for that as well. I yawn - w asks if I was up late last night. I tell her I didn't get much sleep - have a lot on my mind. She asks like what.

I just say that I am trying to figure out why I wear my emotions on my face & act the way I do sometimes. Said that I was able to be calm & talk to you last night but that I really want to be able to just be that way from the get go. Asked her if I wore my emotions on my face all the time.

W says - you mean how you react without thinking. I said yes I realize I do that. What I was referring to is if I wear my emotions on my face so everyone can see. I say that I feel this is part of my old defensive mechanism to keep people away from me. Just look at my face & you can see that I am in no mood to be dealt with. W says that I always get a smug look in my face - a short look with an air about me that just conveys that I am pissed off about something. I thank her for validating what I was thinking about.

W has to go to get lunch for kids - says nice talking - me too.
I know I have it in me to have a civil, upbeat discussion with my w. I do not see the negatives about having her validate what I know to be a problem I have with my behavior. I think that shows her that I am aware of it & now I have to make changes, something I need to change for me since it is a bad fault of mine that needs improvement.