I could understand how Getting a life would help, it is just you feel paralysed with fear. It takes tremendous effort to start, but once you do it gets easier.

All the words in the world cant do it alone, I think for any newcomers, we should think of a little step to give them each day. It is to big in that raw stage to say - "get out there".

Even though I am still lost , life looks a little clearer, you do come through this and without even realising it, doing the simplest of things, a little walk, your nails done, a hot bath all seem to be banked within you and then one day you just feel a little better.

My focus this morning is not to think 2, 4,6 years from now, but just to be in the moment. Today without H , i am going to achieve ...... and i do it.

Only needed half sleeping pill last night. Time to come off them as well.