Thank you for your thoughts. While I understand what you are saying, I don't know if I agree that my H isn't in that place yet. He has initated seeing me or talking to me everyday since I asked him if we could make daily communication a goal. It may be too soon to tell but he could be trying to make the effort even though he could not verbally commit. I'm trying to have no expectations.
My H and I went to the movies together on Friday, he stopped by for a bit on Sunday (although he said he was feeling ill AGAIN), he met me and my D for dinner on Tuesday and he will be going to my S's game today. After the movie on Friday, we did have a bit of an R talk. I asked him if our situation was reversed (I was the WAS), would he be as patient as I have been. He said he didn't think he would. I said to him "Then you would understand if I decided to move on?" He said he would understand but it wouldn't make him happy. Not sure what that means for us especially since my H will now be in 3 back-to-back trials for the next couple of months...and when my H goes into "trial mode", he totally absorbs himself in his case. But to my H's credit, even with his busy work schedule, he still plans on continuing MC.
I understand that my H's work schedule will take priority for the next several months. And I know I can choose to accept things the way they are or not. This is hard because my H and I have made progress but now things will probably be at a temporary standstill. This is why I was thinking it would help "us" make it through this if we could try to have daily communication. Maybe that was too much to ask for (or maybe not), BUT it didn't hurt to ask.
It is so strange because my H tells me how he is giving his partner marital advice and how he needs to try to work things out with his W but he just isn't ready to make that final leap with me.
Here I am in a holding pattern again...and just in time for the holidays!
