MT, those are good signs. Remember baby steps. They start little by little.
Write them down so you can revisit them when you feel down. That helps me to see that H is making progress, even if he makes a temp. retreat back down the tunnel.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Yeah they made me feel good! I will do that Hope, thanks for the suggestion.
After he left Roy's house and the burned garage, H came home before he went to the bar for Taco Tuesday and dropped off the football stuff and the union stuff and then he had bought me some pop rocks candy. We bought some on Sunday on to the way to the game and I had forgot about them, I said something to him about them yesterday when I called H to give him my Dad's football picks. So before he came home he stopped at the convenient store there where Roy lives and got some for me. That was very nice of him! Not sure how late H was when he got home, but I was a little awake and talked some. H wasn't sleeping, I woke up a couple of times and H was cuddling with me.
One thing that H said I did was talked in my sleep, which I do, he said I would giggle in my sleep and have sex dreams. I would say how do you know I wasn't dreaming about you, because H said I never said a name or anything he could understand. So last night I say in my sleep, " You don't care you always speak your mind." When I dream and I wake up I say the last thing sometimes that I said in my dream, well I was still out of it sorta and H said what did you say? So I said it again, He was really pumping me then, who were you dreaming of, I said, Jenni (friend from work), he said what were you dreaming? I said what did I say? H said what were you dreaming? I said she was talking to me at the end of a hall and I said, You don't care you always speak your mind. H says, That is what you said. So I think since that was something he said bothered him was he would lie awake and I would talk in my sleep. So at least I knew what I had dreamed and it was about my friend and nothing else! But that was at 3:00, he hadn't slept yet, I had been waking up off and on, he was messing with me some at different times, so I was nice -here you go Tomato- and had sex so he could sleep, and he was out within 15 min of that! It was nice afterward to, we cuddled for a while. Sometimes it feels like "us".
Then in the morning, no kiss or hug good bye. It is just weird.
morning girlie! glad you got some last nite lol, I didnt! write down the pop rocks too! I think I will start a list also, great idea Hope!! H talks in his sleep too, alot of times I wish I didnt hear it! least you werent saying some mans name lol!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
I didn't either. H hasn't adjusted yet to the cold, so after working out in it all day and then hunting in it for a couple of hours he has been sound asleep after dinner each night. He wakes up early though, about 4 or 5, and can't get back to sleep. Doesn't initiate anything either. Oh well.
He didn't go to the bar last night, had left me a note and was out hunting so that made me happy. He said that he might go tonight so who knows. He does like to keep me guessing.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Hey BG- Yeah I will put them down the pop rocks too! I know I talk a bunch, and it really was something that bothers H, but I don't know how to change that one. Anyone out there know how to stop talking in your sleep???
I have no idea!! sadly I always listen when he does talk, sometimes he says some things that I need to really pay attention too, sometimes its just him bossing his workers around lol!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
I felt like it was a weird night last night. H was home the entire night. I wonder if OW had something to do? Tuesday he was home until 8:15 and then left, and then he never left tonight. It was just odd. He practiced with the guitar most of the night. I got up and made some popcorn shrimp, asked if he wanted some, and H said yeah. Then he got some chip and dip out and we ate that. That still didn't do it for him, so I made some Mac and Cheese. He and the dog went out around 9:30, was out for a while. He was on his phone for 20 min. H said he didn't get off work until after 5:00, yes I looked H had called OW then and talked for 30 min.
It is almost like he knew I was ready to tell him he needed to choose cause I wasn't going to share, and this week he is staying around home more. Who knows, when he left this morning, I was standing in the living room, and he came right up to me, and then doesn't hug or kiss or nothing. I miss him.
Tonight is my first hair color with my new lady! Excited because I have a major grey root attack going on, but also nervous!!! It is so cold here today, 30 but the wind is a howling making the wind chill 25. It is sunny at least!! Hope everyone has a great day!!!!
Did find out why H wasn't sleeping the other night, when he went to Roy's house after the garage burnt, he talked to a nephew and a niece, the nephew works with SD24 and the niece has a class with her. Well the nephew tells H that she has been nice enough to take him home a couple of times from work when it was raining and then niece says, I haven't seen her in class for a while, the professor asked the other day if anyone had seen her. That was H's question to her when she started going to see her BF in the other town so often was, are you going to graduate? She said yes. H said he stewed about it all day. I asked is that why you didn't sleep, he said he thought so. If she doesn't graduate, I think we will both kill her!!
