AmyC, we are so much in sync. I had wondered the same thing on the first Saturday, then the second, that maybe she thought they were inteneded for someone else. I heard the first one she did think that. the second one she truly did get late. I heard she enjoyed getting it. It is a dangerous game, but all the things deep and dark going on with this sitch are dangerous. I tightrope walk on dental floss, I know you know what I mean. Some things developed last night that sent me off, emotionally. I came to tears. AmyC i need some perspective from you and Sandi. here it is:

Her best friend called to leave me a message yesterday. I got home, and saw she called. Called her back thinking it was for another reason. So I started talking about the other thing. she stopped me and told me that was not why she was calling. First she reminded me of W birthday today, which i told her I painfully know. Second she told me that the W weekend with OM was very bad, not good at all. My supposed situation with another woman has my W in a spin. She told her friend that she wanted to stick her head in at my line dancing to see if I was really doing that (?). I found that strange. She says now that someone else may be in the picture she won't she says it would be too hard for her. Next, her friend told me that she is a wreck, she belives that now she thinks someone else is playing with "her shelved video game" (me) it has her backpedaling like crazy. The friend advised me to do something that me and you agreed that I shouldn't do, acknowledge her birthday. Her best friend is like a sister to me, and sometimes she gets me to do things by subtly changing context. she told me to send a card with my daughter, something short and nice. She says my Wnees that right now. She was vwery adament about this, to the point of arguing and then saying well its your decision, but I really think you need to do this. I asked her point blank if my W said anything to her regarding getting any type of b'day anything from me and she said no. i know this person very well and she doesn't lie and she is a true friend. She has helped me throughout this situation so I am complying because something was said in her conversation with the W that has made her call me and do this.

She reiterated that the W weekend was not good, not good at all. she didn't go into details because she wouldn't due to her realtionship with W which I respect. AmyC, what I need from you is simply this, when you came around, as you had posted, you realized you were broke and unconnected. Did you feel vulnerable, emotionally, like you had made a mistake and needed to undo it? My W is confiding in friends as of the past week about her financial situation. this seems to be her main topic of discussion, how sad. I have written the following in her Birthday card, the word love does not appear anywhere.

...of all the years;
...of all the Birthdays;
...of this one I wish you;
The Happiest of Birthdays
Most of All.

Me

I know I am not supposed to believe anything she says and only believe half of what I hear which has been my credo for months. This friend is the one who told my W she wanted nothing to do with OM or if my W was with him, not to ask her and her husband to hang out. why would she get into a conversation about him with her? Why was my W going to go to my line dance classes and check it out? What was she going to join? No, she told her BF that she wanted to see if I was really going and how I was doing. When she heard about possible OW, she told her friend that she won't now because it would be weird to see me with someone else. WTF!. Sorry. Her BF is indicating the train wreck is around the corner right now. I will post again tonight or tomorrow morning but will be looking for a response from you on this. AmyC, is it possible she is heading out of the tunnel? Are these indications that , as I have been feeling, something is going on?