aww thanks S, I am absolutely sure your wife knows who you are. And she is going to have regrets. Huge ones. Time will tell what that means to her.
S, it matters who you are to your children. They will remember who you were during all this. They will have some bad memories, but they will also remember all the good, new ones you are making with them.
Thank you for being a friend to me. And for being the kind of person who reaches out.