wow, SH - you have an intense sitc - I understand what you are going through. Sometime life is very demanding. I had too, people telling me that my Ex "bewitched" me, and insisting with her means only more suffering, while I deserve a person at my side capable to make me happy. I do partially agree with them, there are people, that for different reasons, are able to ruin the life of the people who loves them. My ex W is probably one of them. She admitted candidly once that she cheated all the man she had a relation with.... she claimed she changed with me. If wasn't for my kids I would not consider to go back with her. But I think I owe them a family, or at least try whatever I can to keep our family united. It is a question of priorities, my family is my first one.
Thank you very much for being here, it means a lot to me.